appears that I have a talent for recognizing greatness, a talent
for drawing shit to me like a black hole, and a talent for
one of those great introspective moments in life I found myself
tomorrow people and in the vague haze that surrounds my brain
when I watch bad
British sci-fi I had a flood lifetime moments flash into
my brain. Moments mainly comprised of decision paths that have
occurred in my life, and the amazing fuck fest that is my ability
to always do the wrong thing, with the best of intentions, and the
complete understanding both before and after but never during. And
my blind faith that if I somehow don't manage to make the
wrong decision, that my environment, my friends, my family, and my
physical plane of existence, will skip and trip in the universal
square dance, with the best of intentions, to completely fuck
things up for me. The thing that truly floors me about it all
though is that I have the overwhelming feeling that, somehow I'm
screwing everyone else over in the process,...I feel like
every person who's ever had to deal with me has somehow been
touched by this vortex of total fuckatude, and somehow everyone
senses it, and though I'm the nicest most honest, trustworthy,
kind and caring guy you could have for a friend, I get the feeling
that I give a vibe that isn't entirely right,......and that kinda
pisses me off. But what can ya do.....
felt a similar sinking feeling as I got through the second or
so level of Gunman
Chronicles, and at that point I knew this was going to be
rough. I have a terrible Achilles heel need to finish a game once
I start it, and I can *not* use a cheat until after I've won.
But as I played Gunman Chronicles, I realized, this was just
another of those games released on a
good game's award winning engine, and relying entirely on that
fact to get the by.
I suppose I should mention that the only reason I was playing
it in the first place is that I have many friends that run game
review sites, and a couple of friends who write reviews for trade
rags, and they always shuff demos, and free games off on me that
they get as promos, so occasionally I have to reach over into
the pile and pop in something new as a break from the norm, so
yeah Gunman has been out for a while, and yeah had I read a
review I prolly would have ran away screaming, but I'm a busy
boy, and who knows, maybe I was looking for something to bum
me out even more,..like listening to clutching
at straws right after you break up with someone,...pushing the
limits as it were.
it seems to me that a lot of these games being released are solely
based on the fact that they use a previously raved about engine.
And there are sooooo many of these games that it takes serious
time a trouble to separate the precious metal from the rocks. To
be honest, I don't really have a problem with
the fact that they're using a "popular" engine but it
seems to me there a still a few billion viable concepts for video
games without always basing your game on "the other"
game. Still I'm a cynical bastard, to see mediocrity in others
makes me feel to good about my own thought processes, and I simply
can't have that.
the redeeming side, Gunman did have an interesting secondary
weapons function menu I wouldn't mind seeing in FPS's,...and
driving the tank was nice for all of the 2 minutes In the game you
actually get to do it.
the homefront,...I've been seriously considering getting another prairie
dog, but as I've mentioned before my life sucks and it bleeds
off onto everything else so it seems, plus the last 3 pets I've
had have either died from some terminal disease or buggered off
for greener pastures. Still,...my prairie dog was hands down the
coolest pet I've ever had while she was alive so who knows,...if
not this year then next year. (you can only get them in the
you read the last couple of rants, you'll know I got a nice
hi-res projection display, but I found an even nicer one for
the same price (no assembly required on this one) so I went
ahead and bought it (if anyone wants the old one drop me a line
so the new model has better dot pitch, higher lumens, and higher
resolution. (like it wasn't insane resolution to begin with.)
Anywho,...just another doohickey to compensate for being such a
miserable bastard I suppose.
So,..I've been working on my solo music project in addition to the
work I do with the band Snog
the Squirrel, and it's coming along nicely, I should have
a nice demo off the CD up on mp3.com in April. At least
something still seems relatively pure.